I AM DRAINED

“Stop being angry! Turn from your rage! Do not lose your temper— it only leads to harm. For the wicked will be destroyed, but those who trust in the Lord will possess the land. Soon the wicked will disappear. Though you look for them, they will be gone.” Psalm 37: 8-10

“I am tired of being Angry and release myself from it’s hold.”

Emotions are exhausting. Have you ever had a day where even though you didn’t exhort yourself physically or even mentally, the process of dealing with your own emotions (and the emotions of others) just left you drained? This is normal and you should definitely honor those emotionally exhausting experiences with some self-care. But I think you know where I want to focus today, oh yes on our friend Anger and how draining it can be. It’s true Anger has it’s place in our lives, and you should never excuse it completely because having anger driven passion and the fierce need to protect can have positive outcomes. I’m talking about when we hold on to Anger. That’s right, those grudges and vendettas we hold onto for years.

Why do we hold grudges? Usually it comes from a place of hurt. Someone hurt us and we refuse to let them into our territory again and the easiest way to keep someone out is by being angry with them. Why is that? Why do we choose Anger? Because Anger is brave and bold and menacing. People fear Anger in a way they don’t fear Sadness. We tend to care about people being mad at us more than hurt by us. If you’re angry with me, I have to fix it. If I hurt you, you’re too sensitive or need to let that go because I didn’t mean to hurt you. People also tend to pity pain, and we don’t want to be pitied… we want to be respected. And Anger demands respect. But I want you to remember how much WORK it is to stay angry. Remember that undue anger requires so much to sustain. You have to keep creating things to be angry about to justify your feelings until it starts to become foolish. Think about the last time you encountered a person you’ve been mad at for ever. What was wrong with them this time? Did they have on the wrong outfit? Did they forget to say excuse me when they bumped into you? Did they look like they were having too much fun during a serious moment? Or did you create this false narrative to keep your Anger fueled? You know the answer.

So today, I’m giving one affirmation. Yup, just one, because I want it to resonate and help you in a way you may not have thought about before. Let’s go!

Affirmation: I AM DRAINED. So usually when you think about being drained it means you’re exhausted and tired and need restoration. Holding on to Anger will do that to you. But if you drain yourself of Anger, if you slowly let it seep out of you and wash away, you’ll find peace of mind and spirit waiting for you on the other side. The scripture says “Stop being angry! Turn from your rage! Do not lose your temper— it only leads to harm. For the wicked will be destroyed, but those who trust in the Lord will possess the land. Soon the wicked will disappear. Though you look for them, they will be gone.” (Psalm 37: 8-10) We are commanded to STOP and soon the wicked will disappear. Notice David doesn’t say when the wicked are gone/destroyed/vanquished you should stop… we’re commanded to stop our anger FIRST and THEN they will go away.

My prayer for you today is that you Drain yourself of the emotion that is draining you and be restored. Be patient with yourself and drain. Cry about what hurts and drain. Confront those who’ve hurt you with the true emotion you’re feeling and drain. Unclog that feeling of contempt and drain. Be healed, and drain. Be at peace, and drain. I believe in you. I love you. And as always, I’m rooting for you. Keep conquering daily.